3 Things

There are three things I do when my life falls apart

Number one I cry my eyes out and dry up my heart

Not until I do this will my new life start

So that’s the first thing that I do when my life falls apart.

Oh, the second thing I do is I close both of my eyes

And say my thank-yous to each and every moment of my life.

I go where I know the love is and let it fill me up inside

Gathering new strength from sorrow,

I’m glad to be alive.

Things are looking up

I know above the clouds the sun is shining

Things are looking up

Love is still the answer I'm relying on

Three little things

Things are looking up

The third thing that I do now when my world caves in,

is I pause, I take a breath, and bow and I let that chapter end.

I design my future bright, not by where my life has been.

And I try, try, try, try, try again.

                                  --Jason Mraz

Kris, Laura, and Sabrena in front of the gardens' entrance.

Greetings! This post is long overdo, I know.  Sorry for taking my sweet time to write a new post. I know y'all have waited anxiously to hear from me again. ;)

Aaaaanyway.

I finished my internship at the beginning of August, and my job at the school ended last week because the summer is over and classes have started back up for the Regent folk. So it's just a matter of finding myself a stable job.... or two. I've had some luck. I interviewed with Best Buy, Regent, and OfficeMax. Best Buy said no, Office Max is getting back to me this week, and I should hear from Regent next week.

The Enchanted Forest!

I'm still applying for places and everything, but we'll see what happens. When it comes down to it, I'm going to do what it takes to stay here.

I moved! Granted, I moved within the same complex, but I now live in a two bedroom apartment with a roommate. Yes, my days of lonely living are over, I have a roommate! I'm pretty stoked about it. She's a law student that I met last year and (at least for the week we've lived together) has turned out to be a great person to live with.

I also had some pretty fantastic visitors. :) Laura and Sabrena came to seee meee. :D They had been here for a couple of days and left last Tuesday. Unfortunately, they came to visit the weekend I had to move. Thankfully, though, they were gracious enough to help me move. I really, really loved having them here.

Kinda looks like a fairy tale, doesn't it?

Laura in a tree.

We did do some fun things, too. We went to the Norfolk Botanical Gardens (that's where all the flower pictures attached to this post are from) and to the beachfront. The Gardens were beautiful. I would probably have enjoyed myself far more if we hadn't been moving that whole morning before we went. There are miles of trails so we didn't see the whole thing, naturally. But we went to a Butterfly house, a rose garden, a place called the Enchanted Forest, and the Japanese Botanical Garden. Near the end, we took the tram which, in retrospect, we probably should have done first. It turned out to be a great day. After the gardens, we returned to the apartment to shower and freshen up. We went to Ynot for dinner which is this yummy pizza place out here that has a lot of gluten free options. For the first time in a long while, Laura got to have Ravioli!! I was pretty excited about that, anyway. I think she was, too.

We played a board game called Pandemic. Basically, it's a cooperative game where all the players (up to 4) are trying to rid the world of these four diseases. At the end of each person's turn, the diseases spread based on the card you draw. We played four or five times and couldn't win. It is surprisingly a LOT of fun.

We ended our trip at the beach which was a short, but lovely time. After a weekend of moving, I was exhausted and pretty much just wanted a nap. The day I took them to the airport, I slept from 6:30 pm on until morning, I was that tired. I'm still tired. Kris thinks that it has more to do with adjusting to the fact that I'm really not going back to school.

I hadn't noticed that my phone had switched
 to the black and white filter. Turned into a
cool picture though.

It's kinda surreal, watching my friends post all about starting up their second year of law school and not being able to do the same. I keep thinking that I should pick up all the things I wanted to do last year but didn't have time for, but I can't seem to get myself to do much. I've still been applying to jobs and am hoping something will come through soon, but as far as fun things....I just want to go back to school. Partly, I've always enjoyed learning things and school gave me a structured environment to do so. There is also the face that I've been in school for the last eighteen years...I haven't had to do my life without it yet.

But in all honesty, not going back is still heartbreaking. I don't have much of an idea as to where my life should be headed. I'm a bit lost. The only thing I know for sure is that I want to stay in Virginia Beach. Coming out here was one of the first decisions I really made for myself and followed through with -- against the odds. The last couple years before leaving California weren't my brightest moments. For me, moving was a fresh start and a chance to not have my life be dictated by those moments. Going back feels like I've lost to that part of myself. Maybe that's just how I feel and not actually the truth, but I'm not willing to let go of the life I've started here, yet. That being said, I also have to be reasonable. I know that I can't keep staying here on my parent's dime. If I don't get a job, I will go back.

So yeah, that's a small piece of my life right now. I'll let y'all know when I do get a job. I hope that I'll get good news from OfficeMax, the interviews I've had with them have seemed to go well. During my second interview, I heard that my the two who interviewed me the first time had raved about me. She said that was a plus. ^_^ We'll see. I promise to keep y'all posted.

For any Regent Law students who read my blog, I wish you the best of luck and perseverance for the upcoming year. I'm so proud to call y'all my friends and I really admire what you've done.

Until next time.