Unstoppable

When your heart is full of doubt

As you think that there's no way out

You find your faith that's been lost and shaken

You take back what's been taken

Get on your knees and dig down deep

You can do what you think is impossible

Keep on believing, don't give in

It'll come and make you whole again

It always will, it always does

Love is unstoppable

                             -Rascal Flatts

Greetings.

It has been a very long week.

We had our appellate briefs due on Friday and I completely botched the assignment. Time got away from me, I didn't understand the problem very well and the result was a terrible paper. I know that my grade is not going to be anything close to what I'm capable of. And that is incredibly frustrating to me. I'm mad that I put myself in the situation I did. Had I figured out my problem sooner, I could have asked for help. But I thought I could handle it and didn't realize until way too late that I was in deep trouble. 

Many of the people I've talked to have reminded me that it isn't over yet. I can dwell on how angry I am with myself or I can take back the remainder of the semester. Yes, LARW is over and I botched it, but I still have four other classes that I still have a fighting chance to do really well. As long as I do the work. 

A couple of my friends are in situations not so different from my own. One friend especially is incredibly encouraging. She's constantly reminding me that all we can do is move forward. We've begun keeping each other accountable in getting work done. It's amazing to not have to do things alone. If she reads this, she should know who she is and I hope she's at least remotely aware of how grateful I am that she's become such a good friend to me in Virginia.

I'm discouraged but not beaten, and I've decided that I'm not going down without a fight.

Other than that stuff, life is pretty sweet.

Last weekend, Kris came out! :D The law school was hosting the Barrister's Ball (essentially, law school prom) and Kris came out to go with me. He flew in Friday night and left early Sunday morning. Yep folks, he was here for just over 24 hours. My parents think he's crazy. I think he's fantastic. <3 He got to meet most of my friends and they were glad to meet this boy I talk about all the time. The ball was a lot of fun. I'm really glad I went.

In other news, I have an internship for the summer! I applied for a judicial internship program through my school and I found out on Thursday that I was accepted! I'm super excited.

Unfortunately, there's a catch.....it's in Virginia. So, my wonderful Californians....I will not be coming home for the summer. I know that was my plan, but I have to go with where the job is....which is here.

I'm looking forward to staying here, though. I quite enjoy Virginia. A bunch of my friends will still be here over the summer, so it's not like I'll be all by my lonesome. AND because I'll be driving a ways to the courthouse where I was selected to work, I'll be getting a car! I'm pretty excited. Even though this internship wasn't the internship that I wanted, I've been in situations where what I thought I wanted wasn't actually the best decision at all and things I didn't think I wanted turned out to be life changing.


So that's it. I've got more homework tonight, so I'll finish up here. Like always, I'd love to get mail from you. My mailbox is too full of ads and bills, I could use some love and encouragement instead. haha.